my sister-in-law to be is...

...PREGNANT!

When we heard the news, I am happy, above everything else. Although I never really had a close relationship with her apart from when she is drunk. (she's a bit shallow anyway! For someone like Paul, I dont know how he got on with her) Nick and his mother are the least excited, really. Because, will that mean that Jonathan (Paul's kid from his previosu gf) will be abandoned? Lucy (the sister-in-law) is not in the slightest of favour of Jonathan, so she is very very selfish!

Nick: They did not waste any time, did they?
Me: Well, they have been together for 2 years, they got married a month ago, its no harm conceiving right after their marriage. They would already had 3 kids between them if they did want kids before marriage. And they have kids of their own which are out of marriage.
Nick: *rolls eyes* My brother is a toss-head
Me: Whatever

Story of the family to be.

The Wedding

I am so pissed off I can't find my bloody housekeys and now I can't get out of the damn house and run errands. Sighs. I'm stucked at home with absolutely nothing to do.

As some of you might be aware, I am getting married. To be honest with you, I think it is really scary to think all that will be happening, will be happening. The thought of walking down the aisle, and saying the vows, and being photographed as a married couple is really daunting. Eevery girl's dream is to have a perfect wedding, no glitches, no turbulences, no trouble. I am comfortable to say the least that I am not such one girl who wants everything during her wedding to be immaculate. My friends know I am a simple girl, a girl from humble beginnings, grew up with that bunch of kaki lepaks at primary and secondayr school and during college, with Jasmine, who is a downright wonderful and simple girl, and we went to uni together, and our circle of friendship grew to Deb, Bebe and Ashley (others are often included as the extended bits and bobs of the friendship circle), and now I am here with a man from humble beginnings as well, a kid that was constantly bullied at school, grew up in not a very happy family, and went to uni with his circle of friends, and then he met me. So we pretty much hit it off because we were similiar, but as e grew together we saw differences, differences that can be painfully difficult to absorb. We have had many heartbreaking arguments over the smallest of things, but we are getting married right now because we have come to the point where all differences have bee sorted out and we wont be killing each other in the future anymore. We hope it will stay that way as well.

It all started to hit home when Helen took me to hunt for the dress. We went to so many places in Manchester, but got this very special dress the moment I saw it in a very simple boutique just 10 minutes from where I live. So much for travelling all the way to Manchester ok? We covered John Lewis, Debenhams, Selfridges, scoured through many brands - Vivienne Westwood, Matthew Williamson, Karen Millen, Principles, Monsoon, Vera Wang ( on sale thats why I had a look!) - all like crap ok? Like I said, simple girl, means simple dress. So yeah, I managed a blue number but I aint going to ruin it for everyone and let the pics tell the story of the day. And all the wedding advices that came in from dear old motherly ones, really freak me out! Sometimes I feel like I'm just not prepared to hear or absorb all these, but it's happening and there's no looking back. I have only about 2 weeks more, and I only ordered the ring yesterday. Its probably the loveliest thing apart from the dress - which is good I feel that way, because the dress, ring, and shoes I'm getting married in should be above all, special to the bearer. I'm glad I feel that way. and the best part is, I didnt spend a bomb like Coleen Rooney on her Marchesa gown - which got wet in the Italian rain anyway! Hahahaa. Burn!

I will blog again about the wedding, I need to keep finding for these goddamn housekeys or I wont be able to get things done! Oh clouds are getting darker. Must scoot! x

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Starting time : 1403 BST
Name : Darshini Loganathan
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 0
Shoe size : 8W UK
Height : 170 cm
Where do you live : Rochdale, Lancashire, England.

Have you ever been on a plane : Yes
Swam in the ocean : No
Fallen asleep at school : All the time.
Broken someone’s heart : Yes
Fell off your chair : All the time as well, I was abit of a goof really.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Yeah, the puppy love days.
Saved e-mails : Oh yeah.
What is your room like : Double bed shared with a ruthless man (LOL), messy but clean (blame the man's clothes and his toys all over the place, I have a reputation of being neat anyway)
What’s right beside you : Pen, used tissue papers, empty Walkers crisps pack, iPhone
What is the last thing you ate : Julian Walters apricot coated in dark choc

Ever had Chicken pox : When I was 22 (brilliant!!!)
Sore throat : Right now, the time of the year anyway.
Stitches : No
Broken nose : No
Do you Believe in love at first sight : Sometimes...
Like picnics : Love them on a summers day.
Who was the last person you danced with : Nick's brother, and that's because it was his wedding day and had his first dance with his wife already. (fyi, I danced with Nick first, before you get the wrong impression)

Last thing made you smile : Jon telling me how I should bleach myself like MJ
You last yelled at : Nick
Kissed anyone : Holly, Nick's whole family, Nick, My mum, dad, sister, Kirstie, etc etc.
Get sick : Right now.
Talk to an ex : Been a while, and I miss him in some ways.
Miss someone : Yes.
Who do you really hate: At the mo, no one. Don't like shitloads of peeps.

Do you like your hand-writing : No, it makes me cry.
Are your toe nails painted : Yer!
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : My mum's minus my dad.
What color shirt are you wearing now : Purple
Are you a friendly person : I'd like to think so.
Do you have any pets : Doggie.
Do you sleep with the TV on : All the bloody time.
What are you doing right now : Working and this.
Can you handle the truth : Yes.

Are you closer to your mother or father : Mother.
Do you eat healthy : Never did in England.
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : Nope.
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : Nick, but he makes it worse sometimes. *Men*
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : Loud
Are you confident : To a certain extent.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1) In High School.
2) Cussing people.
3) Lying about my whereabouts.
4) Trying to pass exams.
5) Going for constant tuitions.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1) Ensure my mum and dad are well taken care of.
2) Better our lives, and our children (oh somebody wants them right now!)
3) Charity (I'm quite picky though on who I donate)
4) Travel the world in style. (LOL)
5) Emigrate to somewhere peaceful, like Fiji or some deserted Caribbean island.

5 of my bad habits
1) Procrastination
2) Afraid of failure
3) Very negative at times.
4) Don't know when to shut up.
5) Wanting money all the time!!

5 places I have been living in
1) Kuala Lumpur
2) Klang
3) Petaling Jaya
4) Manchester city centre
5) Rochdale

5 people I tag
Unfortunately, I dont know anyone that blogs except for Jasmine.

Good ol times..

I spent the whole of last weekend (apart from Sunday evening) at the computer, listening to the good old songs that shaped my childhood, teenage years, and years at uni (to sum it all up, my life in Malaysia) From Dido, to Goo Goo Dolls, the reminiscence of what made me reduced me to tears and lightened me up in smiles and tint winy giggles. What a mixture of feelings! It lifted my spirit, and made me realise how proud I am to have family and friends that made me who I am before I came here. It's not that I hate being here, Nick's family is pretty much my family, his mum and her best friend, Val are like mothers to me, and at least I have a parental figure to turn to when I need that motherly love I can't seem to get from my real mum at home. It feels like hugging my real mum when I hug Helen (Nick's mum), but nothing could replace my real mum, and she knows that as well. Same goes to Nick, nothing could replace the bond his mother and he share. It is very special, as they have grown stronger through hardship together, and I somehow feel lucky my parents hadn't lived to make me dwell in constant hardship. But I respect the fact if his mother sometimes is a bit to clingy to Nick because she lives alone anyway.

Helen and Val took me to Mamma Mia! yesterday and I thought what a clever and brilliant movie it was! It made me smile throughout the 2 hours, and it was a special feeling that I had, and embraced, upon coming out of the pictures. Meryl Streep and Julie Walters were the shining stars, what calibre and talent do they have! We sang along, and although I'm a little too young for ABBA songs, I still enjoyed it, because I know the songs, just dont know how to sing with it. How I wish I lived a life like that? In a superbly divine island, simplicity and the spirit of love that abide the wholesome lives of the people there.

I have tendered my resignation from Reuters, because I need a break. I can't travel 4 hours to and fro to work everyday, pay full £13 everyday just to get to work, and not even get an inflationary-adjusted pay rise for this reason. I just am not strong enough, and I've stucked it out for a full year, so it is an accomplishment I am proud of myself. There are also other reasons that I am leaving Lipper, and before you all jump into conclusions, I am not leaving the company on a personal or professional capacity, every reason I had to leave was logistically. So...

I may go to Norway for a month's working holiday break but I am doubting the finances will withhold me for even a week in Norway, it is very expensive! But it is an option I'm consdering. I need depth and breatdth in my career options, what I am doing is not challenging enough. I need a buck up!

I leave work in 10 minutes, so I'll blog even more once I'm done here. x