It's been awhile since I've done things that I used to do before I landed myself in this job. Now that I finally have some time for a breather, I should just sit here in my extremely messy work station and blog about what I've been up to and what kept me missing for a while.

This one whole month of this job is meant to shift my super immature mentality to an extremely forward thinking, fast paced "grown up" woman's mentality. Inthis case, I am forever lost in between "big conversations" and "high, corporate mentalities". SCARY? I dont think so anymore. I believe I have taken this path for a while to get myself on track, to think forward and be more mature in life. There are other ways to seek maturity as you age, but this made my mind sweep into the waves of bureaucracy and that can be fun.

Enough of that. Every week there's something to be always done. But on the dark side, after 8++ hours of sitting right in front of my dual screen computer(it doesnt rock anymore, it kills), I emerge from the office like a hobo lost in civilization, looking like a red eyed monster, who doesnt feel like looking at the computer screen anymore during the weekend. Working here makes me hate computers like anything, hence the reason I've gone missing from blogging and so forth.

Last night the CEO and MD of Asia was in KL and he hosted a cocktail evening at the office's lounge. And the food was absolutely delectable. All by San Fran Smokehouse(?). Concoction of tandoori fish, samosas so fine it melts in your mouth so fast, honey glazed chicken wings, spaghetti and clams, loads and loads of mouth watering cakes, cheese and biscuit platter, free flow of wine and spirits..aaahh.. As I stepped into the function, my dear bureau chief introduced me to the MD. Why of all people he had to introduce me la? I'm such a koochie fart in the office, almost non existent(except my loud mouth). And he started talking to me about my work, 3/4 of which I do not have any answers to. My bureau chief did alot of backup for me. I felt like a bloody loser. To add salt to spoil my repo, my face was bleached in horror, pimples squeaking out for no good reason. BAH. All in all it was a good night, trying to fit in the "big crowd" there. After that Shanice and I went to watch Mr Bean's Holiday. Really hilarious. That two words sums it all up.

The week before two blokes from the Singaporean office came to visit. One of them was the Singaporean Bureau Chief and the other a corporate journalist. Had loads of pints in Chinoz, gossiped.Topics included politics, corporate staff(chose not to participate), ipods, etc etc. Interesting stuff actually.

And more...haha.

OK, lets talk about the movies I've watched so far. I went for 300 with my sister last weekend. Totally exhilarating. Loads of violence that I heart. Well made. Future movies would be "An Inconvenient Truth", Charlotte's Web", and "Pan's Labyrinth".

Ever since I've worked here in KLCC, no women's temptation can be put to stop. I've spent close to 2000 ringgit on retail therapy this whole month and I'm kicking myself for it, even though I love all the stuff and dining I've done so far. And I plan to shop more later. Haha. Someone shoot me please. I'm not saying like its a good thing you know. It sucks to know your just spenidng and having nothing at the end of the day. It really sucks.

I really miss all my friends in UTAR, especially the good ones - Deborah, Ashley, Harwin and Jasmine. I wonder what you guys are up to. Congrats to Jasmine on your new job. Hope for much more to come.

Love you all alot, but its time for lunch. I've been starving since 11pm last night.

Tears of....disappointment...really..

Did you know that I will be 22 in 2 months time today. Notice the play of 2s? I will be able to say this again when I'm 22 in 2 days time - 12th May ;) Lame.

I went to collect my graduation robe today. Mark was being a sweetheart for letting me have such a long lunch break so my mum and dad picked me up from Asia Jaya and drove me to UTAR to collect my frock. Then rang Ashley and the girls have actually dispersed on what would be Deb's final outting with us for about 3 years. Then after lunch with parents, on the way back to work, it got me thinking..3 years of chances, and more chances to get to know a truly wonderful person has just gone to waste, because I chose somewhat a wrong path. Not entirely wrong, but I felt the pinch as time went by. Got me thinking that Deb is going away this weekend, won't be back for 3 years, and in 3 years I'll probably be having a first kid, maybe pregnant with a second(seeing how Nick and I are horny bunnies ;)), and life just got different. I do not want life to be different in that sense that we can have girlie night outs, speak about everything from nonsensical fetishes of Clay Aikens to how mature we've been after our studies, etc etc etc. Hogging a child close to me like a joey in a mummy's pouch while sipping on margarita is definitely not a great way to enjoy.

So I decided to call Deb and realised I was going to break down. Thankfully Miss world was with her shopping for makeup so I tagged along in KLCC. (Mark would sure freak out if they really saw who my "mum" was) So much of given time, so little made proper use of. But reality is set. No friend can say no to a person's decision, what more with preparations being done. And when it's time to say goodbye, its really difficult. It breaks you to say goodbye to someone you really love and cherish. So I gave Deb the farewell I'd give Nick everytime he leaves (minus the sloppy kissing and more erotic caresses). I went back to the office and brawled my all out. Thankfully no one was near my emotionally charged up zone. Jalil was busy hogging the lines when KLIA went pitch black for 3 hours. Mark, Y-Sing, Chuang, Niki..all not around *phew* So I made sure I cried before anyone saw me. Malar got puzzled when my eyes bengkak-ed and eyeliner flowing down, depicting a gothic look.

Ok, I'm off to bed. Got a date on the phone with Oliver.

Muaks all. xoxox
Special hugs and kisses to Deb

my celeb lookalikes

Thanks Oliver for this
It's pretty cool :)

A girl's dream

I had an awesome dream last night.
I dreamt Gucci went on sale, and I was trying on a skirt that went to as low as RM50. And my sister bought a swell Gucci watch that got me freaking jealous. HAHA. I woke up, went to KLCC to scour for RM50 Gucci in the flagship boutique. I fainted when I saw reality - the real price tag.

And so..I've made friends with almost everyone at the big R. The frontdesk lady, Anne became my "ibu gosip" - LOL. So we were talking about why she only has one child. The fact that she miscarried all the time due to anaemia scares me. I am severely anaemic and it would be the worst of all nightmares to miscarry, and cause an ultimate scar in my life. So she told me a few remedies to start off with, seeing that there is mounting pressure for me to get hitched really soon.

Went for lunch with Clarence today and told me alot of very beneficial stuff which I would always savour to my grave. Learning from my assistant bureau chief? Damn good. He even bought me my drink hehe.

Nick called me a newshound LOL. cos i keep updating him of news. the database self updates itself with news and more news, with thousands of self updated news every second. This is the most dynamic work system I've ever encountered.
Ok I'm heading to bed x

The Big R, J, A, D.....and more..

Finally something good (if not great) is happening in my life which is worth blogging about.

I've finally joined the big R.(dont mind me with the initials. The R code of conduct freaked me out, and some colleagues from R UK has my blog addy) Despite being so nervous I went to the loo like never before, the warmth from the editorial department and the extremely comfortable work settings(and not to mention the very lovely dual flat screen pc *rubs it in to Deb MORE AND MORE AND MORE*) made me want to work there forever and ever but there's no room for mistakes in my job, so its scary actually. But the editorial team are fun people who knows their stuff, although I felt a bit awkward during my first day, seeing they are much older with a deeper mantality of life, so I'm happy. N is helping me throughout my career progression even though i wont be a permanent staff there, and thats a great boost to my performance. I am happy. Period. I still miss Nick so that doesnt change anything emotionally. To be honest, I've kind of lost patience with this long diatnce thing (no Im not going to split up) but one of us has to go to the otehr side, and I'm requesting for Nick to do that till I'm done with the big R.
I had a bad start but a good middle and finish for the day. Came to work with a few mishaps on the way to work. I dropped my nose stud and was 4 ringgit poorer cos of the replacement, the LRT suddenly braked and I was holding anything to grip msyelf...so yeah imagine away..my undies got soaked even before I peed. Deb will tell you if you ask her, its just embarassing. And I slammed the door on anotehr woman, and I took the wrong bakery orders for my breakfast. :D

Good cos I met up with Deb and the sweet intern girl from EP. Deb is such a sweetie, but such a funny lil girl as well.
Last night was fantastic although my appetite to eat was bad and I was so sick and tired. Met up with Jasmine, Ashley, Bebe, Kuan Mei, Simpson, Angel and boyfriend. Was a huge TGIF fiesta, although it wasnt a Friday. Great company, great topics of coversation, although I enjoyed the Norbit talk the most with Bebe and Deb. And Deb dropped the bombshell that shes leaving to take another career route for the time being, to kick back and see what the world has to offer, anD I personally think that it will benefit her so much because she gets to see what others wouldnt in maybe 70 years? She deserves it, because she's got it. Personality, wit, charm :) I'll definitely miss her, so much, but Nick and I are pacting to fly the big Q for this 3 years to see if we could spot her. Nyek Nyek ;) So now I'm left with Ash baby, Jasmine and Bebe Miss world. I'm happy. No complaints.

I hope for more exciting outtings like this. Its been fun.

Keith dropped me home today and its been fun catching up with him. We talked about music, life, so much more throughout our extremely dreary journey to Klang. He's got some really cool ringtones I wish I had them too :|

Ok my sweethearts, Knee's aching, eye's bulging out and I;m knackered.

Night all x