My eyes are going to pop out soon

GOD! I can't stress enough what this daylight savings time is doing to me, it's doing my bloody head in. I wake up everyday feeling like crap just because it's 9am bright at 4am. and the longest day of the year, there's only like 5 hours of darkness. gets dark at 10pm and gets brighter at 3am. really really hate it! I am asking nick to change the curtains into darker coloured ones but he insists he likes the lightness. I think it's time to sleep in seperate rooms. and every bloody time i put my eye mask on, i wake up, finding it rolled down to my neck everytime. so much for trying to spare me my awakening. hate his so called common sense he puts into every thought!

right, i start work at 4pm today and finish at 12am. HATE THIS BLOODY SHIFT! stupid odd houred NHS working policies! since I have nothing better to do until 4pm(apart from going to the market for some veg and ham), i'm going to list down all that i have to do in june when i am in malaysia, and friends who still care to read this, who are still back home, please help me by suggesting other things i should not miss that is relatively new to the country (eg a new must-try restaurant, shopping mall, etc)

1) get my teeth done by dentist
2) waxing, facial, hair
3) meeting up with high school friends
4) meeting up with my girlies - kulfi, etc.
5) spending ample of time with mum and dad
6) lepak full swing with my sister
7) helping mum and dad with wedding
8) sorting out wedding attire, makeup options, hairstyling options, jewellery, etc
9) renewing my bloody passport (that should bloody well top my list or i won't be able to come back here!!)
10) raiding mamak stalls, malay kuih stalls, banana leaf restaurants, and possibly every malaysian eatery in the locality
11) shopping for family and friends in england
12) checking out new clubs for a decent night out. still cheaper compared to this shithole.
13) euphoria by mos. MUST CHECK OUT! no need to go to singapore for mos experience
14) 1st leg of honeymoon planning, shame it's not going to be a beachy holiday because it will turn out that my husband, pale as a ghost would be re-marrying a soot-like shadow, if i get burned by the sun.
15) possibly returning to utar to relive the mamak stall and section 14 antics with the girls and possibly Anne (if she could ever come back from KT to see me)
16) KLCC with Nick. he loves KLCC so much!

That's all really I can think of. Help me people, and do you think I can cover all these in 3 weeks? :-( This is so unfair!

I FINALLY BLOGGED

You know what, I can never ever keep my promises to blog. I just am so bushed and swamped with and from work there is nothing else I rather do but to crash after work. I have been working non-stop the past 3 weeks just because Michelle decided to catch the flu bug we've all had and stay out of work. my eyes hurt, my back sore, the bikini body I achieved didn't last long, all the pancakes, waffles, muffins, cakes from work doesn't cease to exist in front of all our jaded souls. My life has been all about work lately, except for some decent night outs, have cut back on the wild side for ages, and I miss that! The long rainy nights of bar hopping, dancing til the stilettos split, puking in cabs and the random snogs. Oh I absolutely miss it. I'm not sure why, but I have refrained the wild side of me ever since I got married. I've onyl had one wild night out with Kiks after I got married. It's not like I'm getting pregnant anytime soon because I am just not ready. I will be having a new nephew in June, so I can't wait to celebrate it with the family (I love going to Wales anyway)

My nephew will be called Hayden Rogers. And I can tell the kid will be a really beautiful child, both parents not bad looking afterall anyway! Ok OK, Back to what I have been up to. Lets see, spring is here, and the lambing season is on!!!! sO Mum, Nick and I went to the Yorkshire farms that Val's son own and we had a blast, seeing all the bleeting lambs given life. And the horses as well have given birth to foals. oh the joy. we had country food as well, yorkshire puddings, toad in the hole, shepherd's pie, etc. and what better way than to wash it down with a nice tall, chilled pint of english country ale! We also managed to go to La Mancha for Mothering Sunday, and we had so much of tapas (my personal fav now is the Broccoli and Cream cheese bake) we swore not to eat anymore tapas in the next 6 months. and we only paid £30 for 3 people + sangria and all.

I sure as hell missed Deb when she came over to Manchester a few days ago, I haven't seen her since Mrach 2008 and I have only seen her twice since I landed my arse into a big hellhole called the United Kingdom. But i'm sure she had fun. nothing beats shopping in england during the sales period(which seems to me like it's every month of the year). There are sales at the start of all seasons, Christmas, Easter, Mother's day, etc etc etc. Speaking of Easter! I CAN'T FUCKING WAIT FOR MY 2 BANK HOLIDAYS FROM EASTER AND GOOD FRIDAY URRRGGGHH!! had enough of working already! What a passive, pessimistic attitude on my end, but really, 12 hours a day with only 30 minutes of lunch break is crazy! Why did I ever decide to work in the NHS??

I also wonder - why tequila shots are downright nasty? I knocked myself out after just 8 tequila shots and never woke up for 16 hours. I thought I had way too much booze my liver fucked up and it killed me in my sleep. But I have been working so hard you can absolutely not reward yourself easily in this coutnry but to indulge in sinful and fatality causing habits - drinks and chocolate. I do my own manis and pedis and hot aromatherapy baths but nothing like visiting a spa realyl and seriously, I can't afford to spare even a penny on luxuries like that. I tell you, KL will owe me for my custom and gratitude to their beauty, retail and food services when I get home because I fucking well am hitting it home full swing with luxury pampering and food therapy. I have struggled my way here for 2 years I can't wait for the 6th June, honestly!

I am so tired to even think straight while blogging. I have got a knee appointment late at night for my swollen knee so I might need knee surgery after I get back from KL. So it's back to going on a bus to Oldham cos Nick's car is been sent for servicing. Honestly, I'd rather be anywhere but work, even if it meant signing my death warrant. I just got back from some training I already have done 3 times in the span of 3 months. Why is that so mandatory that the loss of productivity the frequency of the training done surpasses the loss of productivity as a result from NOT having to attend this training? Because, it is governed by the law. Such stupid enactment of law it's appalling! Every piece of regulation engraved in the book of British laws have done NOTHING but cause more pain and misery to employed commoners like me. Who gets the big payout? Corrupt MPs, unemployed bastards who refuse to go back to work, and fucking fake asylum-seeking benefit receipients!!! If only I had a mass destructing grenade in my possession.

I have spent most of my weekends watching the ultimate Stephen King novels made imto films collection - Carrie, It, The Shining, Shawshank Redemption, The Green Mile, etc. Nick is the biggest Stephen King fan I have ever known and now I am also spending time reading through his enormous collection of Stephen King's literary work. It is, eccentric, deep, dark, and it leaves you on the edge of your fingertips at the end of it all. And obviously, it left me insomniac. Ugh! But yeah it's good novel reading anf film watching fun.

I am so hungry I'm going to fix some lunch. I miss you guys, I'm not sure if anyone of you are still even reading my blog, as my hopeless commitment isn't taking me anywhere.